Conquer.

I fell.
I got up.
I stand in this crowd.
With my head.
Straight.
Looking down.
At the people.

It's funny.
How desperate.
How...desperate you are.
I will walk.
With my head.
Held up high.
Without a care.
In the world.

Holding the object.
In my hand.
I swift across.
The white page.
Hoping to put.
It all behind me.
Thriving for more.

Right.
Left.
Back.
Front.
What's the point?
When you can't?
Move on.
Live fully.

Whoever said that.
Memories won't go.
It's all lies.
The rejection.
It hurts, yes.
But when it comes to.
Yourself.
You gotta do it.

Stand up.
Head up high.
Reaching for that goal.
I can do it.
I know I can.
This uneven road.
I will surpass it.
I will walk over it.
I will....conquer.

Piano.

The bright colored sky.
Big and small puffs of cream.
Floating away without a care.
Smiling.
As I see myself playing.

Wondering what it would've.
Been like, if only.
The consequences.
The bitterness.
The...happy ending.

Hoping for a better path.
I look upon the huge black.
Object, in front of me.
Soft melody ringing.
Without a care in the world.

Smiling, my fingers glide.
On the keys of sound.
Creating memories.
A wonderful thing.
Surpassing the darkness.

Finishing the song.
I think upon the past.
All of it wasn't worth it.
Now, is what I want.
I feel.......at peace.

Inhaling. Exhaling.

I sit here.
Wondering.
Deep in thought.
Inhaling.
Exhaling.

Putting the pen down.
I think to myself.
If it wasn't true.
If all was fake.
Inhaling.
Exhaling.

Vivid memories.
Play in my mind.
Why bother?
When I'm not needed?
Inhaling.
Exhaling.

Glancing outside.
Little white fur.
Comes falling down.
Only to be melted.
Inhaling.
Exhaling.

Placing it near.
Seconds.
I feel numb.
Inhaling.
I'm not needed.
Exhaling.

First Author Update.

Hello!

Well this is my first ever update VLOG-ish....whatever you wanna call it. But hey!

Guess what?! I have started writing a fanfiction! And can you guess what it's on?! It's on my favorite video gamer ever! YUP. You guessed it. Resident Evil fanfic! Now most of you are going, "Whaaaaaaaaaaaat?!" while some of you are like, "What the hayo??!" 

But it's with one of my favorite Resident Evil character!!! Chris Redfield! YAY! *drools* Okay. Uhm...here's a little disappointing part. The story that I'm writing, it won't have the usual Resident Evil plot. you know the one's with zombies, anti-virus and all that. It's going to be a simple story line, romantic comedy with a bit of angst. And I hope I live up to your expectations. And of course! Reviews on it would great as it will help me write faster for you all.

Here's the link to the story:

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9853511/1/Gone-for-Good

This is the current RE fic that I'll be continuing writing. So good to be back writing again! *throws confetti*

Enjoy~

P.S. Oh yes. Almost forgot. I will be continuing my work here as well! So don't be sad. I'm still here! It takes a lot to be writer so please be patient. :)

But I Won't.

I sit on the floor.
With nothing in my hands.
Thinking of the horrible.
I look up.
I can't feel the pain.
It's too much.
But I won't.

The screams.
The cries.
The horror.
Crimson liquid.
Bubbling through my skin.
The pain.
It's gone.
But I won't.

Getting shoved.
The cold ground.
Hearing the cracks.
Here and there.
Wondering.
Why me?
I look into the eyes.
Looking for hope.
It doesn't come.
But I won't.

Yearning for love.
Telling me.
Assuring me.
It's okay.
Everything's fine.
But it doesn't come.
It will never come.
But I won't.

Goodbye Forever.

Watching the fire.
Turn into ashes.
Droplets of water.
Pouring down.
Mixing sand with despair.
Mocking the world.
With its cleverness.

What does it all mean?
When one is no longer?
Laughter along the road.
Breaking the future.
In the distance...
....for more stabbing.

The lights flickering.
Speaking to one.
Of its actions.
Telling what's to come.
Expectation are its enemy.
But what to do?
When you're the enemy?

Stumbling towards ecstasy.
Hoping for freedom.
But what stops us?
From exploring?
No one knows.

Chewing the flesh.
Of an unknown memory.
The sudden burst.
Of emptiness.
Waving through the links.
Upon a wishing well.

The time ticking by.
One by one.
Taking us with it.
Each life...
Going at its distance.
Without glancing back.
Saying goodbye.
Forever.

Blinking Towards The Unknown.

Sitting on chair.
Sipping my coffee.
Thoughts playing.
Like a roller coaster.
Blinking towards the unknown.

Laughter.
Smiles.
Was it all worth it?
Happiness.
Sadness.
Looking at me.
Falling in love.

Watching the ocean.
Birds flying by.
Kids playing with sand.
Sand castles. 
Riding through the rush.
Wondering where to go next.

Looking at the pictures.
I smile.
It was the best moments.
The late night movies.
Was it all worth it?
Passing through.
The difficult times.

Picking the roots.
Here and there.
Painful yet sweet.
This blind love.
Wrecking me.
Like a roller coaster.
Blinking towards the unknown.