Vanished.

Sitting at my bed.
I look up at the ceiling.
Memories play.
Some sad, some good.
Like a movie.

Smiling at one.
And another.
A tear falls down.
My face.
Why?

Why does it hurt?
So much that I still.
Want to hug you.
Want to cherish you.
Want to kiss you.

Lost, in these thoughts.
Hold me.
Wrap me up.
Unfold me.
I am small.

The warmth.
Is gone.
Forever.
You couldn't be the one.
I wanted.

You wanted my attention.
I gave it to you.
Where were you?
When I needed you the most?
Why did you hurt me?

Do you feel anything?
Did you feel anything?
I still feel for you.
Yet I'm letting you go.
Why do I still feel regret?

The more I think.
The more angry I feel.
The hurt you gave me.
Everything....
Vanished into thin air.

Gone.

The moment I saw it coming.

I knew I was a goner.

The way you smiled.

They way your eyes.

Had that glow.

I looked at you from afar.

Wanting to be by your side.

I had felt nothing like this.

There was something.

That made me smile.

Every time you called my name.

You recognized who I was.

As days went by.

We became friends.

But I wanted to be more.

But then you said.

I wasn't enough.

When we became more than I wanted.

I thought.

We were meant to be.

What is this I feel?

The hurt.

The guilt.

That hollowness.

You took it all away.

You thought I was just another.

You thought I couldn't be there.

You showed me what happiness is.

You showed me how to smile.

Yet, why do I feel regret?

Locking the room.

Little sobs come out of me.

I read the messages.

You called me those names.

Yet I'm sorry.

Open drawer.

Reached for the metal object.

Crying.

Pointed at my head.

Gone.

No Pain.

The object in front of me.
Blinking towards it.
I see myself.
As people see me.
But it's me.

You came into my life.
Gave me everything.
Yet you took it.
You took it all away.
From me.

Our past.
Our present.
Our future.
Gone.
Just like that.

The music playing.
Soft yet alluring.
Sitting on my bed.
I'm writing.
As a tear droplet falls.

Wiping my face.
I reach for the shiny object.
The familiar feeling.
Creeps along my spine.
As I hold it firmly.

Drawing out a breath.
I drag across.
Till I feel no more pain.
Till I feel the urge.
Dragging deeper and deeper.

The red ooze.
Feels good.
Soon, I feel.
Like I'm passing a race.
I feel no pain.

I'm Sorry.

When I met you.
I felt joy.
The burst of excitement.
The happiness.
You gave me.

The only thing.
That keeps me going.
Was your affection.
But now.....
......that's gone.

The hurt I feel.
Yet I see you.
This heaviness.
In my heart.
Gone forever.

I need you.
But all I see is.
All I see is.
You smiling.
At another.

Blinking.
As I'm sitting here.
I hear your laughter.
Just through this.
Obstacle.

Is this the end?
Is there no more?
What should I feel?
Should I feel anything?
Why does my heart hurt so much?

Hitting my chest.
Doesn't make.
The pain go away.
Just what is it?
About you?

As I walk.
Down the hallway.
The memories.
Shut my eyes.
I'm sorry.