But I Won't.

I sit on the floor.
With nothing in my hands.
Thinking of the horrible.
I look up.
I can't feel the pain.
It's too much.
But I won't.

The screams.
The cries.
The horror.
Crimson liquid.
Bubbling through my skin.
The pain.
It's gone.
But I won't.

Getting shoved.
The cold ground.
Hearing the cracks.
Here and there.
Wondering.
Why me?
I look into the eyes.
Looking for hope.
It doesn't come.
But I won't.

Yearning for love.
Telling me.
Assuring me.
It's okay.
Everything's fine.
But it doesn't come.
It will never come.
But I won't.