Everything Changes.

The moment I looked up.

You were my hero.

Played games.

Did everything together.

Everything changes.

Over the years.

All I wanted was.

To feel needed.

To be loved.

Everything changes.

Looking in the mirror.

The stream of tears.

Run down.

Why did you do this?

Everything changes.

Out of all the things.

You chose them.

Over me.

Your own blood.

Everything changes.

You had chances.

But no time.

You valued it too much.

And made me push away.

Everything changes.

Matter of Time.

Taking the rounded object.
Going down my hair.
As steam goes off in the air.
Putting another face on.
Getting ready as I look in the mirror.

But the people around me.
I feel like....like I am an outcast.
I don't know them.
And they say I would never succeed.
The actual words are 'I'm worthless.'

What do you know about me?
How can you judge me?
I don't want to know them.
In the last 26 years.
I still don't know how.

Don't push me into things.
It would push me away from you.
It makes me want to cry.
And sleep.
And never wake up.

This world is cruel.
People are cruel.
No one is a hero.
No one is a saint.
And no one is an angel.

There are demons around us.
There is evil and bad.
No one is going to help.
Only yourself can help you.
It's only a matter of time.

I Wonder.

Always wanting to show.

Always wanting to need.

The power.

The money.

Why them?

Why not us?

The world is full.

Selfish.

Heartless.

Arrogance.

Power.

Manipulation.

As I sit here.

Looking upon the society.

I wonder.

If all this wasn’t here.

What would it be like?

I wonder.

Those little fingers.

That first smile.

First words.

First steps.

Turning into something sinful.

I wonder.